Sam has been so sick lately. He is not eating. When one child suffers, the whole family suffers. I have cried my eyes out over this child a hundred times.
One new conviction today was, if I would really behold and believe how big God is, and recognize even a fraction of His glorious power, this issue with Sam would seem so small. It is a problem of unbelief, a problem of being unable to release him to God. My vision of God is far too small, my vision of earth far too big. How can I rest if I do not trust? I can only believe with the faith that He gives, and so I ask, please Lord, give me more faith, help my unbelief.
I certainly love comfort more than Jesus, and suffering will definitely help remedy that! And that is a blessing! Thank you Lord for not leaving me cold and lifeless in my comfort, and my small vision of You.
My prayer must change from “ take away this pain!” to, “MORE of You Jesus, give me more of Yourself.”
Not feeling so great.
